Hi, Mommy. I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a
few weeks old. You're... going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let
me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown
eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm
going to be you’re only child and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going
to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each
other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.
You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't wait to
tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was perfect. You
have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I will see in my life,
and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I know it already.
Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about me!
...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you
noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called wedlock, and
money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still
happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you.
I could feel you fall backward, and your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay...
but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't
like. It doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after,
and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It
wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it,
Mommy.
Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so
proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes, and you were so
so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most beautiful voice in the
whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I
feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be
perfect just for you. I will make you proud, and I will love you with all of my
heart.
I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on
your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.
Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny
and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but
that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry, Mommy. When I grow up I
promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I
don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit
you, and he said he didn't want us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me,
Mommy?
You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?
It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched
me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I
think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when you sleep. You sleep
funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I
feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?
I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere
today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I
want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're
as excited as I am. I can't wait.
...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know
what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going
to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared, Mommy. Please tell me you
love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!
Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels
bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!
Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me
what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.
Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid
of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love
you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I
do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really,
really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love
you enough? Please say you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch
the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be
here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did
something wrong. I love you!
I love you, Mommy.
Every abortion is just…
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak
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